Mixed Emotions: Part Two.

So recently I was watching this dance show on television and this girl came to perform; now she wasn’t like the others. Normally, standards set by these dance shows are really high and everyone expects mind blowing dances, well this dance wasn’t when I watched it in ‘coming up’. But, when I watched the real thing I was on the verge of tears. This girl I just mentioned, well she can’t hear neither speak and then it left me wondering, we judge people so fast, don’t we? We’re always passing comments on any random stranger, without knowing anything about them and it’s really saddening. This girl, she was so confident, she was smiling. A question that kept lingering in my head for a very long time after I watched that episode was, you know how these people can’t speak or hear or can’t see, but are always happy and we can speak and we’re so privileged and yet we have so many problems, it never seems to end. Isn’t it supposed to be the other way round? We’re never happy with anything, we’re always finding faults. Is this what our lives are worth?

Backward region children. Well, we’re all aware of them aren’t we? We’re always cribbing about how we don’t have the best of the teachers, how the air conditioner of our classroom is not working, how our books have not been printed properly and so on. Ever thought about these kids who don’t get proper education what so ever? These kids don’t have proper education facilities, these kids don’t get brand new books neither do they have proper notebooks or air conditioned rooms and if they can get a sixty on hundred without all of these facilities, how hard is it for us, us who get such good facilities to get a sixty. Look at the difference. 

So we’ve been having student council elections in school lately and as student council elections come near, there comes a whole lot of drama, a whole lot of changes. I mean the people who looked lousy the entire year now look like soldiers, head straight up, trying to impress every single teacher there is! I’m not saying this is wrong, do it. But do it, for the whole year. And seriously don’t lie in your speech, for heaven’s sake. Even if you lie in your speech have the courtesy to live up to it. And then comes to voting, stop bribing people to give you votes. Also, the policy of ‘vote for vote’ is really annoying, such stupid alliances.

WHAT'S HAPPENING!

It feels really weird writing a blog after so long, I’ve missed blogging. But honestly, when I say this I mean it, TWELFTH GRADE IS A PAIN! I mean, when I first came into twelfth, everyone told me it’s going to be easy and it’s a fun year and there will be pressure, but only when you near boards. And I seem to have been witnessing the complete opposite and I’m not even joking. I know twelfth is harder compared to eleventh but the pressure is building every day. You cannot 'take it easy' anymore. (No, I’m not trying to scare you.) Tests have become like the rapes in Delhi now, there’s one practically every day. It does not even feel like I am in twelfth yet, everything happened so quickly, it hasn't even sunk in yet and that sucks. All of this apart, coming to the main point, WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE PEOPLE IN INDIA? HAVE YOU LOST IT?

When I wrote my post on Damini, I thought it was the last I was ever writing, but then some retards don’t have decency. How hard is it for you to keep your private part inside your pants? You say our clothes provoked you, seriously? So you’re telling me if your sister wears the same clothes, it’s okay if someone rapes her right? Since it provoked you, it’s okay that someone else felt the same way right? India is known for beautiful dances, marvelous dishes, rich heritage, rains, the crowded railways etc. But when rampant corruption, these ‘you can’t even imagine would ever happen’ cases and the political system comes into place, India loses what it really is. 

And seriously, what the hell is wrong with the media? A 5 year old gets raped and the first thing you want to do is pounce on the news, because you WANT TO BE THE FIRST ONE TO FILM THE ENTIRE THING? I understand how the role of media is really powerful but, it’s only our country for a matter of fact, who TELLS THE ENTIRE WORLD ABOUT EVERY SINGLE RAPE THAT HAPPENS THERE. Rapes happen everywhere, but I’ve never seen any of their rape cases on a news channel, flashing as ‘BREAKING NEWS, BREAKING NEWS, BREAKING NEWS’ AFTER EVERY FREAKING FIVE MINUTES! 

Then, there’s the police, Can someone please do me favor? Please go slap these inspectors, who take oath to protect our country; save us from miseries and what are they doing instead? Taking bribe to kill the matter? WHAT ARE YOU? INSANE? Mr. Hawaldar, a 5 year old got raped and foreign objects were found inside her body, I have two options flat on the table, I either bribe you or shove foreign objects up you, so that you know the excruciating pain that little one is going through. It’s really sad to see all of this on news and it really depresses me. The poor child. 

This is only my opinion on the entire thing, feel free to comment about how you liked it and do share it so that people wake up! Thanks.

Today's Kids!

When I picture a kid, it’s usually a cute girl kid with ponytails and her bag bigger than her body. But, I’m guessing those aren’t kids anymore. When I see kids now, my whole image of this small cute kid just disappears! They’re not even worth calling kids anymore, honestly. When I was a kid, or may I say when we were kids, speaking on behalf of all of us, we weren’t even a shadow of what these kids are today! I don’t remember having an Apple Iphone or some other classy phone back in sixth grade. (I had a black and white nokia in seventh…..) All of these kids have become such brats, I must say. Using bad words, ones that I wouldn’t dare to utter even today, ones I hadn’t even heard of when I was their age, I think it’s insane! 

I see pre-teens crying over losing their boyfriends and I’m literally talking about people are 11 years old! I hear them whining about how he dumped her and I’m just sitting there and wondering, is this what your life is all about? What happened to the pre- teens who wanted to be first in class, who wanted to read- aloud in class, WHAT HAPPENED? All they’re interested in now is looking out of the window in the boys recess and “showing off” (As they call it) in front of the guys.

Sometimes when I’m walking outside the school campus or some other place where all these weird pre-teens meet up, I see them smoking, hitting each other, making others bleed to be precise and it stuns me. THESE KIDS SMOKE. If you’re a kid and you’re reading this, let me put this in a really simple manner for you, IT IS NOT COOL THAT YOU’RE SMOKING, YOU ARE NO GANGSTER. I don’t remember any of my friends or their friends used to smoke when we were pre- teens.

I can say with much confidence that I wasn’t even two percent of what these kids are today. Studies, home, tuitions, family were my top priorities and that seems to be far away from the priority list for any of these pre-teens.

Mixed Emotions: Part 1

Has anyone ever got that feeling, when you are surrounded by a thousand “friends” but you still feel so alone or is it just me? Well honestly, after a lot of betrayal and trust issues, it’s really difficult to determine the true meaning to what a friend really is. We all go through problems that seem to build walls and we put up our guards higher. So basically today’s blog is just another one of my unedited ones where I spill things I’d question all day long and regards to a lot of topics. We have to wake up now and realize that there are bigger problems than losing a best friend or breaking up with your beloved boyfriend, step outside that tiny box you’ve created for yourself and look at your life from someone else’s point of view or look at someone’s else’s life. There are so many problems out there that we tend to ignore but we can solve them. We let problems build on us and pressure us, it gives us so much of tension and stress and then we drink and smoke to make ourselves feel lighter. A lot of us want to deny that we’re not okay, a lot of us, make ourselves believe that the problem isn’t big, but as soon as its build up so much and there’s no foundation just like a building it breaks. We break down and cry so much. Bu that’s not the worst part, the worst part is we let people break us, we let our guards down for people who we think are different but NO, they just turn out to be like the rest. As far as friends are concerned, they’re not supposed to judge you, break promises, betray you, stab you in the back but when a friend does all of the above, is she or he really worth calling a friend?

So there’s this girl, she thinks she’s really strong and she’s built some pretty high walls and it took her a lot of courage to break that wall for people that she let in. She tries to stay away from trouble now because she used to cause trouble herself before. She never shares her problems with anyone nor lets out other people’s secret but one day she did, blindly trusting someone she thought she could trust and guess what happens? Her trust is obviously broken. How does that feel? How do you think you can face that person ever? I mean, can you pretend it’s all cool and nothing’s wrong at all? Well, that’s the biggest mistake anyone could ever make, not solving the problem like I mentioned above is the worst possible thing you could do. Instead, you should talk it out and end it. But what if you don’t have the courage to talk it out, because you know it’d hurt you in many ways, because you thought you could trust that someone and now you can’t, guess what you’re doing? You’re just trying to run away from the truth, you have to tell yourself that, it’s over, it’s broken. Because once you fold the paper you can never remove the crease, once the thread is broken, it’s going to be really hard to get that same thread back without a knot. 

Sometimes when everyone is out of your life and you have no one to look up to, you tend to think it’s because something is wrong with you. NO. Don’t worry, there’s nothing wrong with you at all, you’re perfect your own way even if you don’t find someone to love you now, there’s something big in store for you later. Even if the guy you love doesn’t want to see your face, it’s okay, don’t frown, there are a lot of people out there who do want to see your pretty face. Don’t ever downgrade yourself for some idiot who did not say I love you back or someone who broke your trust. It’s okay, mistakes happen and you learn from them. Go ahead and find another cute guy, maybe this one would actually like to see your face and remember it’s not about looks, though this world is all about it, but in your tiny world why keep it about looks? 

When you preach something, do it yourself. Don’t be a hypocrite. There is so much hypocrisy in this world it makes me want to puke. I mean people who preach something, don’t follow it themselves and then lie about how they do. It’s saddening to see how people do that, but don’t worry my friend, what goes around comes back around. If you did something bad to someone, don’t worry, wait for it, it’s coming back to you, just how the ball comes back in your hands after you bounce it.