Thursday, October 2, 2014

Forever? I doubt.



Do you know how much it hurts when a phase ends? I mean we are all so caught up in the moment that there is never enough time to think about what will happen when this phase ends. They say all good things come to end, but can promised to never end relationships also end? I’m sure most of you had some name in your head while you read that question (congratulations if you didn’t). Today I was looking back at a few pictures and all of that I promised to push back just came flooding back in, I’m sure at least a few of you souls could relate to what I’m saying.

I don’t get this, what does ‘I promise to never leave you’ or ‘I promise to always be by your side’ mean? Does it not hold enough meaning to fight all odds, to push back your ego, to solve the unwanted problems? At the end of the day, all of us never keep a promise, none of us stick to our word, it holds absolutely no importance, no meaning at all. In today’s generation, ego is the key to all failed relationships. It’s always about, ‘no why should I take the first step?’ or ‘no they should come and speak to me, not the other way round’. 

What if one day someone who you thought would never leave just walks away from your life? What happens then? This person must have been someone you’ve confided in, they know all of your secrets and now they’re gone. This person must have been someone you thought would never leave, no matter how many friends go and come; this one will stick till the end. Now imagine if this happens to you, not once but more times than you can imagine? You know like, when you trust someone and they break it, but somehow you regain the courage in you to trust someone else again but they break it too. Imagine how devastated you’d be to know you can’t keep people around you for more than a year, because they choose to walk away. You start doubting yourself; you tell yourself you’re no good, you’re the worst kind of friend ever. 

There’s a little voice in us, it’s the negative one. This person loves pushing you down all the time. Before you had someone who you could talk, this someone would tell you then, no you’re better than you think you are, but what if this person walks away and never comes back? Lol. It gets so messed up really.

So save yourself people, you are your own hero. Let other people come and go and the end of it, you die alone, not taking people with you but only faded, hurtful and joyful memories, contrasting each other. Don’t ever hold expectation that this person is going to be my forever, because let’s face it, what exactly is a forever?