I want to be in that uniform again, I guess.

As much as a part of me does not want to get back in a uniform (referring to the school one, just saying), a huge part of me does. Walking down the streets of Bur Dubai around 7:30pm, I see these juniors in the gray uniforms we once wore and kinda realized they have it the easy way, you know? I mean let’s think about this for a second, who do we have now to constantly nag us about doing better? Frankly speaking, I’m so paranoid with this whole college phase and stepping into a completely new environment with absolutely no freaking clue about what’s happening around me, it’s freaky you know.

I think school made me feel secure, like I knew what I was doing and now that I’m out of school, baam! I don’t know what to do. It’s like a tortoise. He feels so secure in his shell, it’s his home, he knows he can’t lose that ish for nuts, but when he does, how is he going to survive? We are that little tortoise, I’m guessing.

At this point of time in my life, I wouldn’t mind going back to school at all. I wouldn’t mind getting up as early as 6am just to go to school honestly. At this point of time I’d do anything to be a high school student again. 

I feel so empty and I don’t know what to do about it. Forgive me for rambling on and on, I just need to at this point. How many of you have that shit feeling of results being just round the corner? I do. I mean we have been bought up with the whole ‘CBSE 12^TH GRADE, IMPORTANT YEAR OF YOUR LIFE, YOU BETTER GET AMAZING MARKS’ lecture and now that we’re done and awaiting these results to be declared, I’m freaking out. The more nearer we get to the end of May, the more scarier it gets. We all are aware of the fact that boards aren’t really predictable, anything can happen and I loathe that feeling, literally.

To sum it all up, if you are a junior and reading this rant, or managed to read till the end of this (lol), give it your best shot! You only get one chance at it and that’s it, that is the scary part but if all your seniors could do it, so could you, it just takes a lot of hard work and a truck load of faith, and I mean it!